life or something like it

6:28pm:

OMG HI LIVEJOURNAL!

HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

8:17pm: mmm....
well.. kishana's gone until sunday and i miss her a lot already, this makes me sad.
but i still have janelle, so this makes me happy.

i went to daytona today with janelle angela and leeann, it sucked because i hate shopping haha, but it was good company.

last night was fun, yes it was. i'll miss u hahah. i rock.


i don't even know why im updating, no one really looks at this anyway blahh


we are laughing.
we are having fun.

6:33pm: goodbye new jersey
so my friends from new jersey left today and this saddens me because we had a lot of fun. last night was by far the best though, we got a hotel and everyone came but i ended up passing out kind of early, but thats ok.

i think i'm going to orlando tonight with my janelle

girls piss me off, except janelle and kishana.. blah.

12:43am: so this weekend was an experience, went to the club friday and saturday
saw michael jordan both nights and chilled right next to him in vip on saturday
anddd near the end of the night i danced with him, whaaat, and yeah i know he's old but it was cool haha
started my new job today, its cool.. but i dont like the whole waking up at the 8 in the morning thing everyday but whatever
alright im done.

11:02pm: i got my wisdom teeth out on friday, and my face is swollen and they hurt real bad


: (

10:44am: I GET MY CAR TOMORROW!! woooo yeah i know, it's about time



anyway, what's up?

7:14pm: yup. things are GREAT.
and i can say that with complete belief that it wont change anytime soon.

4:56pm: "now beat that! and ur mothers saying go to college, and when u finish college, its WONDERFUL, you feel so good, and after all the partyin' and crazin', and dont forget about that drug habit you picked up at school from bein around ur peers. HEY! now u'll get that 25 thou. job a year and u'll spend ALL ur money on crack cocaine, but itll be UR money, no more borrowing from mom for my high! so now u get ur degree tatooed on ur back ur so excited about it. if you continue to work at the Gap after several interviews, oh my god, ull come in at an entry level position and when u do that, if u kiss enough ass, ull move up to the next level! which is bein the secretary's secretary! and boy is that great! you get to take messages for the secretary who NEVER went to college! shes actually the bosses neice, so now ur part of the family! you know what college does for u, it makes you really smart man! all u kids talked in the back of the class, not me! i listened, okay, i was a HALL MONITOR, this was meant to be! you know how many classes i took? extra classes! NO IVE NEVER HAD SEX! but you know what! my degree keeps me satisfied. when a lady walks up to me and says hey you know what's sexy? i say no i dont know what it is, but i bet i can add up all the change in ur purse very fast!"

4:29pm: last night was fun, i drank a little more than i would have liked to and i started drinking way too early but it was fun.
i dont have much more to say except that i'm mad, at a lot of things.

and that i'm really tired cause i had to work all day

she finally sees it!

11:56pm: ok, im getting a 93 camry
and NO MORE ACCIDENTS

: )

9:05pm: i just found out today that my best friend i had growing up commited suicide on monday : (

i wish i was in new jersey right now

1:07pm: can i get an encore
heya.

i just got out of my 3 hour class and now i'm in the lab waiting to go to my next 3 hour class. YAYY
after that i plan to clean my room and maybe go to deidra's for some pilates..

yes, i have infact made a decision... i'm moving to tallahassee next semester and going to TCC, i might live by myself or with angela and aylee, we're going over spring break to look around.. consider me excited. i'm gunna miss my mom though, like A LOT.. it's been way too much fighting for me lately, but i'm SURE we'll get along like GOLD when i move, yayyy. BUTTT janelles moving to dallas so that means we'll be apart and that just sucks.

i've decided i'm in no rush to get a car because i'm bad luck and i don't wanna die. but i know my parents are going to get me something real soon cause theyre sick of driving me around.


things are overall okay, i've been SO good lately.

8:39pm: weeee
i'm finally applying to come colleges.. FIT in new york, and FIDM in los angeles, crazy. and maybe i'll do some in florida too.. maybe.

6:02pm: hmmm...

isn't that crazy that we don't have a lighter in my whole entire house? i need a cigarette.

2:34am: BLAHHHHHHHHHHH
life is boring .

10:54pm: shitty
sooo i got in another car accident...
my sister flipped her BRAND NEW car on 95 with me and her friend.
everyones okay, my sister broke her foot and i just hurt the same shoulder again, but not as bad.



it seems the very few times i actually feel like going out something bad happens, ahhhh.



i feel horrible for my sister.

12:01am:

wooo

found a few cars i love.. going to look at them and some others this weekend....

hopefully i'll get something

 

i love this one..

 

and this one...

 

who knows though... i'd be happy with anything

 

 

i've been working sooo much lately, haven't had a day off in over a week.. buttt i get saturday and suday off so i'm pumped to sleep all weekend

 

9:07pm: i go to court tomorrow
pray for me.

10:59pm: things are slowly but surely starting to get better.


still a few things missing though.

1:30am: i'm so serious when i say that everything that can go wrong lately, will.





am i supposed to be learning from all this? i think so.

10:31pm: finally did my christmas shopping today. yay.

ummm...

i miss stacy

i'm starting to like just staying home, i don't even miss going out..
i think i got too used to staying home when i couldn't go out so i'm home all the time now. it's fun.


i need a car

9:58pm: i wish i had all the money in the world

so... i have no car- no cell phone- & i can't work to make money to get either of those things anytime soon... ANDDD, my dad is home for two months..

i think i liked it better when my parents were gone so they werent here to remind me how much my life sucks right now, especially my dad... i got the "i never got shit when i was your age" thing. "and you get something and you treat it like shit"..um yea dad, i paid that rabbit to run across the street and totally fuck things up for me.

a lot of things need to be changed about me and my life, and it sucks that im realizing this now after everything so messed up as it is.

i actually cant wait to start working again and to go back to school, but i have no transportation to either of those... haha seriously, im so stuck right now

i wish it was only my mom cause i know she'd be helping me out with everything.

 

9:30pm: im watching man in the moon, what a good movie.

9:35pm: winter break is going to be horrible, i'm probably going to have to stay home the whole time.. my mom comes home on monday and i can't wait, the downfall is she is going to have my dad with her.

i need to get a new car.. because i dont have one anymore... even if i did have one i couldnt drive with one arm anyway, but i will need one.

12:37pm: i miss my car


& it sucks having to be in bed all day

this is so shitty : (